I have gotten no sleep tonight. Maybe a few hours all together through the night. I can't sleep. I'm nervous.
The decision was made between my treatment team and myself last night to enter an even higher level of care. I'm going to have to leave work for, probably, a month. Go on short term disability. And then enter this level of treatment again.
It's hard. I'm the employee of the year. I know that my health comes first and that the people central to my job are compassionate to my treatment. It's just...I don't want to let everyone down.
I guess it comes down to "whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger"